A true story about a ridiculous human
I was told that today was World Suicide Prevention Day and I guess it's as good a time as any to write about my least favorite subject some days: me. Let me be up front: I have suicidal ideation. It's always going to be with me, but I can at least talk about it. In grammar school, it was the first time I tried to take my life. My personal life was in shambles; my parents were at odds with one another with me stuck in the middle. I had a lot of thoughts I couldn't process..but all I knew is I couldn't take it anymore. I left a note and it was found by a teacher. All it did was just get me yelled at by the faculty and my parents. They never asked why I felt hopeless enough to try it...but all they felt was shame. Great start for me trusting adults. The family situation didn't get any better during that time. Both sides of the family were in a cold war sort of situation and it just made me feel worse. I counted 9 times I've tried. And I failed each time. I actu...